Do you even realized it?

it's all about her.
you know her. and you know how much she loves you. like her own sisters.
you know you always upset her. and you know its sucks to know the fact
that she is so sensitive yet a crybaby to you.
do you even realized it?

that's the problem with people who have good hearts.
they are less appreciated by you, them.
perhaps if they left this worldly dunya, at that time people , or you may
start to realized her kindness and start to regret not having her
get treated properly. no, she does not want anything in return ,
just a little  place in your hearts. maybe not that full but maybe just a half of quarter
of your hearts? or maybe she can't have it for the rest of her life.
do you even realized it?

having you as a special person after her family is a blessing, and
not everyone have that chance.
but you always look down on it, ignore it like she have a great big hearts
that's never get upset with your attitude.
she loves you, when you have wronged by others,
she wanted to correct you, cause she want to prove her loves to you
is not a fake. its a true love that you always ignore and ignore and again , ignored.
she wanted you to be her role model, not to support you even you're wrong.
she willing to protect you in the absence of you in front of people.
she hides your weakness in front of others
and you don't even give her chance to correct you?
do you even realized it?

yes she always give in when she feels that she need to.
yes you are being loved by people around you
until she always give in with people you love most
and loves you behind your back, without your knowledge
she always pray for you, for your everyday life, for your loyalty in dnt
and for your qudwah, which make her jealous that she's not having it.
do you even realized it?

do you know how much she loves you
until one day she thinks to give up on you?
until one day she thinks to stop making you a special person after her family?
until one day she get upset towards you and you doesn't even respond to her?
until one day she left silent towards you and you just do your routine with them,
who you love most, more than you love her ?
do you even realized it?

do you know how much heartbreaks that she went through caused by you?
do you know how many times she force herself to forgive you when
you  not even apologize?
do you know how many times she force herself to stay and be patient with your attitude?
do you even know why she keeps loving you when she know that you will always upset her?
do you even know why she keep forgives you when she know that you were not sorry?
do you even care?
do you even realized it?

do you even know that she loves you for the sake of Allah
why? cause among all the broken hearts, she know there a times
when you give her attention, you give her a helping hand
and you give her what she needs, although its not all the time.
but she really appreciate it, that she never forget those wonderful moments.
that's the problem with her, her memory of joyful moments with you stick in her head
like she can't erase it or forget it.  the memory of you everlasting in her mind.
do you even realized it?

do you even know why she chose you among all those sisters and friends that she have?
don't you know you are special but sometimes you underestimate it?
or do you even dare to ask if she happy or sad? or are she okay that time?
asking her what do you do today, are you free? what do you eat for lunch?
don't you try at least once to stand in her shoes and feel what is like
to be loved by people ?
don't you fear the day those people who have good hearts give up on you?





it's not a love story between female and male
but it is more to a friendship story, that were forgotten.
a sister-not-related-by-blood story